[He shuts his eyes a moment, his teeth set together, hard--as if he can work through this, as if this moment, too, will pass. But there's something in her voice that digs in to him, under his skin, somewhere deep. What has he done to them?]
I never wanted it to be this way. Annie, I never-- I didn't want this. But I can't stop myself. It has to end. I keep waiting, for it to end, and it never does, and I think I've got it done, and sorted--I did it, for so long. I was better than any of them.
I'm sorry, Annie. I'm sorry to you, and to George.
[He nods, wordlessly, his breath hissing from between his teeth, his fingers grasped on nothing and his arms straining in his bonds--but he tries to hold still, he tries to keep steady, to let her grip and her belief both be enough.
Jesus.]
I want to be. [He swallows; he struggles to form the words, to make them make sense--] I want to be better, I do.
I'll still support you, you know that, right? I'll always support you.
[She says that with a level of dedication almost rarely ever seen in people, even in Annie. She'll stay with him. His addiction, it's not Mitchell, it's the beast inside of Mitchell, and she'll stay, of course she'll stay.]
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I never wanted it to be this way. Annie, I never-- I didn't want this. But I can't stop myself. It has to end. I keep waiting, for it to end, and it never does, and I think I've got it done, and sorted--I did it, for so long. I was better than any of them.
I'm sorry, Annie. I'm sorry to you, and to George.
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Mitchell-
[She presses her hands in his hair, and runs them through]
You are better, please, please, you are better.
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Jesus.]
I want to be. [He swallows; he struggles to form the words, to make them make sense--] I want to be better, I do.
But if I can't.
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[She says that with a level of dedication almost rarely ever seen in people, even in Annie. She'll stay with him. His addiction, it's not Mitchell, it's the beast inside of Mitchell, and she'll stay, of course she'll stay.]